As if she was never there.

Mia - 9th April 2010 -

She curled into a ball on one side of the empty bed. Feeling the chill creeping up her spine and the bitter cold biting through her skins. Her body was trembling with every breath she took.

The night was windy with strong waves. The rain outside was light as it accompanied the thunderstorms from the distance. So far away yet still so loud. Moonlight shone the lonely room from the black window.

She was on the verge of crying, silently. Tears were emerging from the corner of her beautiful, green eyes. Her hands curled up into a ball of fist as she clutched her bedsheets. The other hand of hers, shook badly as it covered her mouth.

The white, silky nightgown didn't cover the thin, small, vulnerable body. Thick blanket was the best rescue but it was damped there, untouched. The fan wasn't on, yet there was wind in the small, dark room.

She ignored her messy, long, black hair spread on the pillow. Her red, full lips started to shake as she bit hard on her tongue. Her heart was yearning, and it was all that she could think of.

The clouds were black and white with droplets. There was no creature outside there to be able to help the helpless, lonely lady. While the oceans waves kept crashing and the tall trees kept waving; the body and the heart of a beautiful lady in her lonely room kept breaking and breaking.

As she fear the moving, time....

She finally, slowly, began to shut her eyes.

Hot tears began to trickle down her eyes, crossing her small, pointy nose and wetting her plump, soft cheeks.

Her lips finally opened up with painful sobs.

Smooth and melodious voice of a mysterious lady began to be heard out into the eerie, exposed midnight.

She began to breath heavily. And held her heart in her own embracing hands, as there was no one to hold it for her. She slumped tighter into a ball, as she felt her heart getting more and more painful as seconds passed by.

The clock kept moving on, fast forward, and there was nothing she could do to make it even faster. She wanted to get out of the pain she was feeling, and just flew away into the sky now. Without even looking back to her useless, lonely, sinful life.

And she inhaled deeply. Trying to regain another calming breath.

Instead; she inhaled with pain inside her chest. Her lungs burnt.
She failed to breath easy. Her heart was stabbed with invisible knife.
Her lung was crushed with invisible hammer.
While her chest was broken into two.
That was what she felt now.
She had no more cure.
That was what she knew.
"No more cure... No more."
Her body trembled so hard as she realized the time was coming soon.
Sooner than she thought it'd be.

At last, she surrendered.
She stopped trying to breath easy.
She let her heart, lung and chest took control of the pain.
Her tears were flowing so fast.
Her sobs were loud and painful.
She wanted to go now.
She wanted to end it all.

But with a broken smile, she began to think back.
Just for a moment, she promised her self.
She looked back.... Rewinding what she went through in her life.
Her short life, so full with pain and sin.
The life of a lonely, helpless and sad girl.
A life with broken dreams.
A life with pity wishes.
Soul without a name, it seemed.
Just like a key... without a door.
Shameful. Pity. Guilty.
She felt so useless.
Thinking why the hell was she there in this cold Earth.
She cried loudly...
And made a very strong wish...
That wished she was never there.
Just never there...

And, as if miracle was agreeing with her...
Her wish was becoming true.
At last. The life of the poor girl had ended.
She stopped breathing. She stopped crying. She stopped sobbing.
Now she was a complete corpse.
And no one knew her in her life.
Nor in her death.
As if she was never there.

Never there...